Below are the 3 most recent journal entries recorded in Emma's LiveJournal:

Saturday, January 13th, 2001
11:21 pm	Interesting I've had a molto interesting day. Not that I did anything particularly of interest except talk to people that say interesting things that make me think. For example, I was having a simple chit-chat with my uncle and he said something really hurtful to me in a perfectly normal voice and it took the rest of the day to make me notice it and actually get hurt. So now, do I even have a right to be hurt (as much as anyone has a right or no right to be hurt) since it took me all day to make me get it? Also, this cook at work who has asked me out several times and I've turned him down for the simple and terrible reason that he has very crooked teeth and looks like a rodent. Although, besides the dreadful teeth, he's fairly decent looking, has a sparkling sense of humor, and likes a lot of what I like without liking EVERYTHING I like so that I know he's not faking. And he told me today that I'm more annoying than anyone he knows. Hmm. Makes you think, yes? I annoy myself sometimes, but I've never really considered myself excruciatingly annoying. And then he promptly asked me out on a date. Also makes you think. But I went running today and I loved it!!! Actually, I went trotting, since I can't run for more than thirty seconds without getting pathetically winded. I'm not that out of shape, I just run out of breath faster than a three-year-old loses their attention span. Then I went hiking, or more accurately (again, because I speak in euphemisms then promptly regret my evil lies), tromping through the woods that live in the center of the peninsula that I go trotting 'round (oooh! I love this song! "...I'm happy as a queen, and foolish though it may seem, to me, that's everything..."). I tried to get myself properly lost without hope of returning to civilization without wandering about for a good three hours. Just as I stood in the bracken of wild ferns, old mossy stumps, and embracing evergreens, feeling completely and proudly lost, I heard conversation coming from about six feet away where there was another huge and stony trail. Alas. But I did get myself properly soaking so that by the time I reached home, I almost chopped up my workout pants (a hundred percent cotton) to go in cocktails. But today was interesting; I guess you had to be there. Current Mood: good Current Music: Billie Holiday's Love Songs (2 Comments |Comment on this)
12:51 am	Aargh! Frustration with computers ebbs in my veins! Along with frustration about the course of my life. Hmmm, I don't really like my serving-at- Starbucks-cafe-job because it's demeaning, and besides, Starbucks constantly "forgets" to pay you for certain hours. My score is at 83 hours currently, and that's not counting all the paychecks I didn't check! Plus, rich Seattle-ites tip absurdly. But I have nasty availability, wanting to fit billions of things in one week. But I need to stop complaining, for God's sake. Or at least for my sake and if some unwitting and trusting reader falls upon this journal, I desire them to believe me capable of more than just griping. So, I love the author Robin McKinley. I love the song "Crimson and Clover." I love fairy tales and misty air that makes one feel like they live in the fairy tale. Yeah. And that's helped me. Now I need to change my mood from grumpy to placated. "Complaining won't fix what I would complain about." -Milk delivery man Current Mood: Placated Current Music: Silence, since everyone's sleeping (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 11th, 2001
12:27 pm	This is the beginning... And when I come to the end, I'll stop. Alright, why are movies with happy endings "cheesy Hollywood" movies? Somehow the movie gains depth and importance if it's riddled with suicides, murders, and drug-induced nightmares? How fair is that? Aren't dark and depressing movies cliches too? Damn it, I'm not afraid to admit that my problems are, for the most part, simple and handle-able. So, bring on the happy endings, Hollywood! I love them!!! Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: Gentle hum of library monitors (Comment on this)